he'd rather jerk off to porn than jerk off in my mouth
written @ 3:57 p.m. on 2005-03-27

Does anyone else get offended when their lover looks at porn and then jerks off when ur in the same room? i'm in the room, it's not like i can't help u get off.

My fiance doesn't like it when im in the room while he's looking at porn and trying to jerk off, and i don't kno y either. maybe he feels uncomfy having me watch what he's looking at and doing... but he told me to leave so he can finish. i leave and come back like 7 mins later and he's still not done. wtf?! rn't men suppose to finish within that amount of time? well he told me to leave again, so i asked him for how long, "oo like 10 mins." that kinda rubbed me the wrong way, it depressed me and made me feel unwanted.

B4 all this, i asked him if he wanted to cum in my mouth, but he said only if i sucked him. i don't really like to give him bj's b/c he gets kinda rough near the end of it and my mouth hurts and there's spit everywhere. i hate that. i like a nice clean bj. i said no and then left. now i feel rejected or something. i feel like this everytime he does it when im at his house. i don't see y we have to have sex everytime he wants to cum or look at porn when im not in the room. y can't he just cum in my mouth or pick a spot to cum on my body that isn't my face? ::i hate cum on my face. i think it's gross, and it feels gross too::

I feel a lil better that i wrote bout this, but i still feel depressed.

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